Broken Hearted Girl :(

I love you :'(

Dear Mr N , do you ever realized that you are soo special to me ? Do you ever realized that Im in LOVE with you ? Do you ever realized how much I love you ? How much I care about you ? How much I want you to be with me ? How much I hurt when Im loving you ? Even you know that I am so close with those boys , You are the only one . I am soo THANKFULL to have you as my friend . I cannot pronouns by words how much I love you . I've never in LOVE with boys like this . This feeling is such a MIRACLE from Allah ! Inlove but I can CONTROL . Now Im in love with my own friend . He is a good friend of mine . We know each other for more than 5 Years already . Do you wanna know why I deleted you from my facebook friend lists ? Because you are such a PLAYBOY . Everytime I open your page on facebook , my heart got CRACKED ! Many girls , sexy girls , pretty girls , non attitude girls . But me ? Hijab girl , Daddy's girl . Hurhh . When I think twice , ' I can only dream about him  . How come he wanna LOVE me with what I am now ? Wearing Hijab , Must go to bed before 12 and something that most of the CITY BOYS doesnt like ' . Hmmm . Its okay . I still can face it with patience . Alhamdulillah , Thank God for all the happines that you had given to me . I really appreciate it . How I wish my life is full with Allah's blessings , happines and LOVE ! No sad , no tears . Hmm . Thats all for now . Im going to have a greattt weekend holiday with my family in the resort somewhere in Kota Bharu . Will updates you guys later . Have a nice day :)