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ya Allah . segala benda yang aku tempuhi tentang si dia berakhir dengan cerita yang amat amat melukakan hati ku . mmg sukar dipercayai tapi harus mempercayainya . hanya Tuhan yang mengatur semua tetapi kenapa si dia bermain dengan perasaan aku seperti budak bermain dengan anak patung ? ya Allah . please give me more strenght to face towards all this . i know You already set me a plan but please not right now :'(
tadi saya guna akaun kakak saya dan buka profile si dia . saya melihat seorang perempuan menge'post' sesuatu di profile si dia . dia berkata ' i misss youuuuu sooo muchhh babyyyyyyyyyy ' dan satu lagi saya tak igt -,- haha .
hati saya hancur berderai . hanya Tuhan sahaja yang tahu perasaan saya pada waktu itu . :(
i cried and cried and cried untill my eyes is as big as a stone ! i told my friend about him and he said ' you need to be patient to face all this . you need more strenght . do not think about him because he only could hurt you . not make u happy but HURT you !! ' i was like ' yeah , you are right . but , i cannot believe this !! sooo unbelieavable ' .

he is the only person that already play my heart like playing a doll . i know he is such a caring boy , a lovely boy , handsome b0y and a good boy :) but he doesnt know how to love and respect a girl@woman . i just can say that HE DOESNT KNOW HOW TO RESPECT WOMEN !!!!!! HE IS NOT ABLE TO BE LOVED BY A PERFECT WOMAN WITH A KIND HEART !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

LOVING YOU IS SUCH A WASTE !! I SWEAR IF I COULD FORGET YOU ONE DAY , THEN I WILL NEVER LOVE YOU ANYMORE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

my life full with worries , problems , stresses and much much more just bc0z of you !! you are the only one that know h0w to play my heart .. woww , you are soo lucky because no one had play my heart before . and i know , no one will be like you in the future !!!!!!!!!! i hate u !!!!!!!! i hate u !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



ya Allah , please let me free from all this things . i want to f0rget and start a new life . study how to accept new boy in life because loving this one boy is such a waste . please please please :(