the difference

i am sooo sooo sad now . Even no tears on my eyes but there's tears on my heart !! I'm feeling soo lost . I cannot believe anyone's words anymore especially when they praise me . Like , ' hey sahara , you look pretty todayy ' . And I was like ' don't praise me if you just wanna make jokes ' !! . Means , I cannot trust anybody but ME .. I know this one person that I wish I could trust him if he is my partner . But , he is not my partner soo I cannot give him a trust .. When this one boy told me that he is in love with me . I asked ' okayy . But why ??? ' (My first question) . Because I feel like there are millions girls around this wide world that are prettier than me . And I also will never trust or believe this person . But why I need to be like this ? -____- . This is my problem now :(